The location for most of my epiphanies are strange. Today I had one while staring at myself in the bathroom mirror. I was straightening my hair and it occurred to me.
I’m not totally happy and I haven’t been for a while.
There. I said it.
Yes I can put on a great act for friends and family but deep down something isn’t right and this has been going on for a … long time.
Luckily for me, the epiphany didn’t end there. The missing piece is that I’ve been reserved since my last relationship. Okay, its one thing to have been hurt and hold back a piece of your heart but I think what I’ve been doing is holding back a huge honking chunk of myself.
And not only from potential dates and mates but from EVERYONE.
I’ve been so terrified of being my usual wear-my-heart-on-my-sleeve-send-you-a-care-package-just-because-you’re-down kind of girl for fear of being hurt that I’ve all but shut down. No shit then, that I’m not happy. I’m not ME.
Now, I wonder when the epiphany for fixing this mess will strike? On the toilet perhaps?
